The Mind vs. The Heart

What feels like a sleepless night
The mind knocks on the heart
Asking questions to pick a fight
When the heart only wants to depart

It's not a simple one to answer
For I also know stories of his past
So it's no wonder
My dear ones are understandably aghast

I know and truly appreciate the love
That everyone has shown me
Constantly remind me to stay above
For nothing is for certain or a guarantee

Circumstances put all at halt
I can only try to see beyond fault
Like a boat drifting along
Nothing else I can do but stay strong

Trust that fate shall carry me through
Trust that patience will pay what's due
Trust that time is on my side
Trust that love can be our guide

I do feel the pressure at times
To actually know what's to take place
But no one can guess the results
Until the end of the invisible race

Perhaps it's just to set a date
For the mind to keep the wait
As we set sail for Northern Lights state
Is when I will finally call checkmate

When the hourglass runs out
Know that this is true
My heart has been there for you
Evolve or erase, who shall be who to who

Leave

Dear Pipsqueaks,

For the ones that shouldn't stay...


It has been decided
You must be on your way
No more explanations
No more delay

I had your bags packed
Already prepared for
There's only one way out
And that's the front door

What was meant to be
Surely not complicated
Yet, now where are we
No where near delighted

Like two stations
Playing their own songs
Only the rare occasion
Humming the same sing-alongs

But let's give credit
To those happy days
When nothing required audit
How amazing to be love craze

Drawn back to reality
Even the light must give way
So shall happiness to dismay
I have taken my bow for this play
Now its your turn
Please leave the stage with your bouquet

10th of August This Year

Dear Pipsqueaks,

It's a bit challenging when even my own birthday reminds me of someone. Which is why I wrote this in 2010 to remind myself...

Nothing special, nothing grand
Just a few friends gathered for dinner
And only a handful would know
This day means the world to me
Not only because its my birthday
But a special day indeed
Except, this year
A change of mind
10th marks the new beginning
Time to regroup and fight
Its time for me to fly

Refocus

Dear Pipsqueaks,

Sometimes, we're all tempted to look back. But, you know it's not worth the look. So do yourself a favour...don't.


Sometimes I
Just want to say
All that's on my mind
Maybe somehow bring a common ground
To our parted distance
Be it at heart or at place
At least I'm still existant
Even if by trace

Sometimes I
Just run out of words
Nothing that's worth a mention
But the craving lies
To hear from u
But afraid of the silence thereafter
Temptation withdraws slowly
Even if it aches

Its hard to believe
I can be swayed
By words alone, it's true
Yesterday's courage
All seems a drained
Maybe some rest will calm the nerves
Tomorrow,
Will have its turns

Just To Say What's On My Mind...

Dear Pipsqueaks,

This one hurt the most, but as my sister always says - "You write some of the best stuff when you're emo". Well...thanks?!

There are times when i am strong,
because i know i have to be.
or else i will lose u,
lose all that makes me believe.

all the times when i am weak,
i wish, i wish you could see,
that i am trying hard to remind you of
everything special to you and me.

but, i feel you slipping away
from my world, from our place
and there is nothing i can do,
except to pray,
pray that you will remember me,
and tell me everything's going to be okay.

i still remember the very last day
when you knelt before me to say
"long distance, but my heart, here",
fingers binding our souls together.

every time i start to lose faith,
i think of that moment to give me strength,
to hold on tight, to keep believing,
that in the end, all this will be worthy.

so for now, i stand alone
in the mist of uncertain tones.
hoping you, my knight
will be reawaken,
to walk, hand-in-hand with me
for the rest of our lives, just be.
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for,
you - who will never read this.

from,
me - who will always be right here.

Nov 1st, 2009

What's Inside

Dear Pipsqueaks,

Written about the one that couldn't commit...


Nothing hurts quite as much
As the absence of your heart
Even with words so sweet and plush
Like dagger of reminders
They hit with full force rush

Maybe you have already forgotten
That very same night
What was unexpected, oh so sudden
But indeed, bravery won the fight
I let you take my sight

I couldn't have been more mistaken

What we both had in mind
To think you actually needed me
In your ever-so-busy life

Again and again I find myself expecting
For that call never made
For that message in fade
So sick and tired of all this wait

If I knew this is what you meant
When you tried to hold my hand
As tempted as I was to accept
It was never what I intend

If I knew this is what you meant
Then I wish it were never you
Who tried to hold my hand

Flashbacks

Dear Pipsqueaks,

We all see a little something in others that remind us about our own stories. This one was written about boyfriend no.2...


Memories are such funny things
Its like they have a life of their own
Not in your control
Even something I have tried so hard to bury
Comes alive in a hurry
In a crowd once again
It all seems like a movie
The way he stops the champagne glass
From reaching her lips
And raises his own to greet
The way he puts her head on his shoulder
As her heart beats too quickly
Kisses on her forehead to calm her gently
The way he just cares
Actions louder than simple words
All too familiar to my chords
Forcing a smile
It only gets easier
I hope
I hope
Stupid love songs

A Valentine's Rhyme

Dear Pipsqueaks,

Sharing my thoughts on Valentine's Day in 2011. Yes, there's just something about love...


no matter how it begins or ends
the story still stands
to awe and amaze
all the rest
that once upon a time
a great love story came to life
a bond so strong
it was said to last forever long
but do not be startled
by its magical powers
to be drawn in, it's only human
to crave that feeling
be loved, be cared
oh, it's so tempting!
so cherish the moments while they last
or be glad to have been there when they're past

Best of Friends

Dear Pipsqueaks,

Another one from the vault of Jessy's random writings - to best friends:

[F]rom the moment we met
[R]eal heart to heart
[I]n history our story writes
[E]very tear drop, every pain
[N]ext to one another through each rain
[D]estined to be the best of friends
[S]o we shall, till the end

[F]or now we must part
[O]n this fork road in life
[R]emember always the memories
[E]very joy, every laughter
[V]ows of loyalty and endless support
[E]tched to last through distance and time
[R]est assured you're in my heart always

[B]ecause...you and I
[F]riends Forever

Hesitant Love

Dear Pipsqueaks,

Memory is a bit rusty but this felt like the time when I was so close to becoming someone's girlfriend, yet still hesitant. Unfortunately, it didn't work out. BUT! If my network tells me correctly, he's getting married this year if not the next. I'm glad he's found the one for him...

i wish i knew where life's taking me
i wish my heart could see
how you're the hand that leads me through
how you're the one for me
every time i look in your eyes
every time i fly
you give me wings so i can soar
you believe that i can be much more
could this be, could you be?
could i belong next to thee?

(Are you in love?)

From Me to You

Dear Pipsqueaks,

It's really a walk down memory lane reading through all my old poems...

my love for you is like
the sun behind the clouds
there, but hiding
sending you mild warmth from afar
hoping one day
to shine only for you

我對你的愛戀就像
躲在雲背後的太陽
存在卻看不見
遠遠的散發出對你的溫暖
希望有一天
只為你閃爍

2*15*2009

Winter Wonderland: Contiki

Dear Pipsqueaks,

Continuing on to pour all my writing onto my blog - a poem I wrote after our 'Winter Wonderland: European Tour" with Contiki. Reading this still brings me right back. Let me take you on a flashback...

our worlds met at the london pub
no one thought a second more
loaded the bus and off to explore

amsterdam's red lights and our awkward ice-breaker
sure many guys were itching to experience the "culture"

berlin's dark histories of brutal slaying
to remember or forget has brought mixed feelings

prague's magnificant castle and massive coins
and a church that took 800yrs to adjoin

innusbruck's collection of beautiful swarvoski
made our christmas even more dreamy

munich's bike tour blessed by good weather
beautiful sites and some gutsy members

venice's gondola was the couple's best memory
xmas eve's sudden snowflakes was our best merry

rome's ancient scenary was a breath-taker
nearly frozen, gelato was a must and as good as ever

vatican city was a long wait in rain for what seemed like miles
but nonetheless the majestic st.paul + pope made it all worth while

florence's david seems the perfect man, but not quite
karaoki bar and one litre daiquiris made the night

ferrari's awesome cars were a shocking display
even the girls had much to say

lucerne's new year's eve party was priceless
chilled at the highest bar in europe on mount titlus

paris's triomph arc had the best view of eiffle
moulin rough's performance was tempting and playful

thought this trip couldn't get any better
chemistry sparked and brought us closer
can't believe our three weeks ended
now more than ever i feel binded

holding on to the memories tight
for our european trip was the adventure of a life time

Words Unspoken

Dear Pipsqueaks,

Trying to catch up on writing down the millions of thoughts flowing in my mind here, and now I feel rather lost if my writing isn't posted/archived here...so transferring from Facebook, a poem dedicated to my dear sister:


I may not be the best with words
But what I feel is true
All my life, every moment counting
You were there, through and through

No matter what I may throw at you
Unfair, unreal, pure delusional
I'd get my way before I turn blue
Yes, I can be so dysfunctional

Now, I know I'm Ms. Difficult
But I'm so glad it was you
That took the challenge by default
With no instruction or any clue

No one said life would be fair
So you never bothered complaining
'Cause you know I do really care
Except it's never for sharing

It's time for you to hear me out
All the things I have to say
It may get a little gush, no doubt
Yet, they've been too long in delay

Right off the bat, I'd like to thank you 
For always being my cornerstone
My dreams were no longer far from true
'Cause you'd never let me fight alone

Thanks for keeping me grounded
Reminding me what matters
Thanks for ensuring I'm protected
So I could leap without fear of shutters

I am truly grateful and truly blessed
To have your company on this journey
No matter what life may wish to test
With you guiding, I'm sure to pass however many

If you still have not guessed by now
I shall be bluntly clear
This was written with a bow
For the world's most amazing, my sister

Ivy Sung

玻璃球裡的世界

下著雪花的場景
我一人等待著
搓著冰冷的雙手
試圖取些溫暖
終於 好像有些動靜
急忙著 我趴了上去
玻璃卻像鐵了心的門神
把我擋在外
認輸 我也只能在此卻步了

看著 兩人燭光晚餐
有說有笑享受著對方的陪伴
雖然聽不到什麼
但也能從表情看得出
以心交心的感動
經典的幸福畫面
多麼讓人羨慕

Wheels of Fortune

Lost in this ever-changing world

Feeling as if the ground could never stand still

And just as you start to gain some balance 

Like hurricane whipping through 

Your journey, unfortunately, must begin anew 

But please oh please fret not, my friend 

For the wheels of fortune constantly turn 

Everything is on track as intend 

So surely in your favour it shall ascend

Our Names

To be invisible in your eyes is to disappear from this world...


after all these years, u'd think it'd get easier to forget all those memories.
in truth, it cannot be done.
u can lock them up in ur heart forever, but the urge lives on.

(If only u could see what I see...)

just another episode from some drama queen's life.
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Season Times

Spring breeze
We met on such a sunny day
Even the crowds couldn't get in our way
Strange forces at work, u could say
Doesn't matter cos'
Cherry blossoms were calling our names

Summer glow
We were oceans apart
The nights would've been lonely without ur calls
So I wait, patiently, for u to wake
To hear ur sweet voice, whatever it takes
Freedom was calling our names

Fall chill
Loneliness descends
As u drift away further
The wait was too empty, wounds hard to mend
Hopelessly wishing u could hear
Fallen leafs were calling our names

Winter ice
Frozen in time
Unable to anymore disguise
All the pain from our memories' prime
Hope dies with the love I once knew
This time, silence replaced our names

Bullied

Note: after watching more than enough bullies caught on videos, I felt it was appropriate to cheer on the bullied. They may not fight back just yet, but they won't take it for long...cos they'll find their way soon enough.


You feel all alone
Trapped by chains and stone
Like nightmares come to life
Except no one knows

You fear their presence
You fear the pain
You fear it worsens
You fear the shame

Now, you must refocus and regain
All that should be yours again
Let those fears guide the power
The strength to make you stronger
You must be your own defender
Know that the day will come
When you no longer fear
You have survived and won