What To Do With Exes

Dear pipsqueaks,

Not until recently have I met a few people who have got me thinking about exes again. No, not that kind of thinking. Not the lovey-dovey, reminiscing thinking, but rather, the "how come we're not even friends anymore" thinking. Actually, now that I wander back, I have not been able to keep any one of them. Not even one. Okay, maybe the last one but he's a different case.

Why is it that they all run from me? Why can't we still be friends? Isn't it such a waste of a relationship to go from everything to nothing? Do they honestly hate me that much not to want any kind of connection to me other than being in each other's memories?

This phenomenon used to baffle me to the point where even I get mad for their "child-like" reactions. The "if she's going, I'm not" or the "silent treatment". Honestly, does it have to be this all or nothing ultimatum? It didn't work out. Isn't that bad enough we couldn't make it work? Why go a step further to isolate yourself from me than to go through it together? You aren't alone. If anything, I'd be the person to understand exactly how you feel. Don't you think?

Best Way to Wake Up

Dear pipsqueaks,

Just wanted to share a song that I kinda feel into a loop listening to. The first time I heard it was on the gym radio, and for the life of me, I couldn't find the song! But now, it's readily available on my phone to accompany me anytime anywhere. Not sure how, but I've grown into the habit of playing music first thing waking up. Just to "light up" the place, I suppose. With sunlight slightly beaming through the curtains, it's not a bad way to wake up for the day. 

Side note: can't believe how jolly I sound on a Monday!

Love Is...

Dear pipsqueaks,

When approached with this question, I always find myself stumbling to find the right answer. Then, I remember my poster in my old Vancouver bedroom. I've never been a religious person, but that doesn't mean I don't reflect on the teachings of the different "teachers". So, this one seemed to answer the question quite well - for me anyway...

"What is love?"

1 Corinthians 13:4-7Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

What is love for you?

Side note: I need to find this poster...time to dig into all my boxes!

Wedding Bells & Hardcore Fans - Jakarta 2013

Dear pipsqueaks,

It's been so hectic that I couldn't find the time to write, and I feel disappointed that I haven't. No worries though. I'm super determined to recap my trip to Jakarta just last week for Vivian姊姊's wedding and Indonesia Open. Briefly thinking back, so much had happened within the 4-day trip. Going to do justice to this trip, I'll do a proper write up some time tomorrow. Can't wait! Why? Somehow, it only feels official when it's written. Black and white. Seriously, look what work has done to me! Anyway, update at the soonest :)

Jessy, outs!

Booster Upper!

Dear Pipsqueaks,

It's been a super dry day for me processing stuff on the computer, but luckily, I still had my music to keep me going. Just a song from my playlist that I found rather inspiring - even the music pumps me up! In case you need it too...

"因為堅持 所以我們越要相信"

"Because of insistence, we must believe."

玻璃球裡的世界

下著雪花的場景
我一人等待著
搓著冰冷的雙手
試圖取些溫暖
終於 好像有些動靜
急忙著 我趴了上去
玻璃卻像鐵了心的門神
把我擋在外
認輸 我也只能在此卻步了

看著 兩人燭光晚餐
有說有笑享受著對方的陪伴
雖然聽不到什麼
但也能從表情看得出
以心交心的感動
經典的幸福畫面
多麼讓人羨慕

In Lyrics

When You're Ready

Dear Pipsqueaks,

The pride in being able to drill out any secret has, in many ways, been how my "Drama Queen" self functioned. Though, it isn't always about gossip - mind you, it's only because I cared enough to ask.

However, it's about time to set that personality aside. Why? Is it not true that if one never asks, there will never be an answer? And if one must know, one must ask?

Yet, I fail to remember that as human beings, we are naturally programmed to bond and to crave for social interactions. How does that relate to this whole "asking questions" you're thinking to yourself? Well, look at it this way. Do you always wait until your best friend asks you a question before you tell her things? Do you hold on to information, so to share it only when someone asks? No, you don't. As social beings, we can't wait to tell someone before it burst out! At least, to tell someone that matters.