Dear Pipsqueaks,
It's been honestly too long since the last time I've updated. I just haven't been in the mood to write. Can't really put down in words why that is the case. Perhaps I've just been so mentally drained to have any 'thoughts'. Mentally drained due to office dramas - and yes, it has been this way for nearly 2 years, but I think I'm down to my last drop of patience.
I saw a post that truly reflected how I felt. Maybe, this can explain it a little...
"I'm done compromising. Even more so, I'm done with being compromised."
Don't get me wrong - I love what I do and the experiences this job offers. But, I don't feel like I'm learning or growing. Professionally or personally. I've just been here. Present, but that's it. Nothing more. It stresses me out that I have not learnt anything new or grew in knowledge/experience in the last couple of years. It also doesn't help that I feel undervalued and unappreciated.
And that is no one else's fault but mine. For settling. For accepting. So what can I do about it? Should I just keep waiting and pray that things will get better, or take action to make things better? If they don't, then at least I can say I've tried. Right?
Moving swiftly along, I'll be in Fuzhou for China Open until the 21st, then back for 3 weeks before we depart for Dubai on the 10th, then it'll be year-end break till 2017. I foresee that the boss won't want to deal with me until the new year. I think the last drop can last me until then.
It's been honestly too long since the last time I've updated. I just haven't been in the mood to write. Can't really put down in words why that is the case. Perhaps I've just been so mentally drained to have any 'thoughts'. Mentally drained due to office dramas - and yes, it has been this way for nearly 2 years, but I think I'm down to my last drop of patience.
I saw a post that truly reflected how I felt. Maybe, this can explain it a little...
"I'm done compromising. Even more so, I'm done with being compromised."
Don't get me wrong - I love what I do and the experiences this job offers. But, I don't feel like I'm learning or growing. Professionally or personally. I've just been here. Present, but that's it. Nothing more. It stresses me out that I have not learnt anything new or grew in knowledge/experience in the last couple of years. It also doesn't help that I feel undervalued and unappreciated.
And that is no one else's fault but mine. For settling. For accepting. So what can I do about it? Should I just keep waiting and pray that things will get better, or take action to make things better? If they don't, then at least I can say I've tried. Right?
Moving swiftly along, I'll be in Fuzhou for China Open until the 21st, then back for 3 weeks before we depart for Dubai on the 10th, then it'll be year-end break till 2017. I foresee that the boss won't want to deal with me until the new year. I think the last drop can last me until then.
(Where's my next destination in life?)