It's been one of the most draining weeks this year! (lol, just kidding. I know, I know. It's only been 2 weeks, but out of the 2 weeks, it's been the more tiresome one!) So yes, I'm extremely short on everything: sleep, temper, patience, focus...u name it. But, still a trooper- I went to work like a goody goody. Averaging a 5hr sleep cycle for the past week, I can't wait to get my 10hr normal nights. On the other hand, that meant it was time for goodbyes.
Goodbyes. Definitely not my favourite moments, but they're a must. After a quick Starbucks meet with my friends who had been here all week for the Malaysia Open 2012- one pair of which took home a champion title *proud*- it finally dawned on me that they were actually leaving. No worries though, I did try to spend as much time as I could with all my peeps that were here. So, no regrets. As many "hi"s u say, there'll be just as many "bye"s u'll have to say. Of course, I understand we all have our paths to take. With that, I'm just glad we had the chance to cross each other's n spend some time together. Actually, I've always believed that there's a perfect calculation of the amount of time to spend with someone that will be just enough n not too much to make departures rather tolerable. Possibly, a week or two? It's not exact science n I've never tested this out, but I've began to feel that a "sentimental but hopeful" goodbye is possible.
It could be that I've come to terms with not being able to keep my loved ones with me forever. Even so, their importance will not diminish with time or distance. I can't say this understanding was easy, but it had to be done as I know it's impossible to have everything I want. Everyone knows something's gotta give. It's fine though. Distance n time away make the heart grow fonder n the gatherings even more precious. (Yes, I do find that I have impossible levels of tolerance n patience for my family's, um what's the word, imperfections? Yah, something along those lines). Fortunately positive, I'm able to say goodbyes with a smile now. It's not because I don't feel anything for separations. It's because I know we'll meet again soon. I'm sure of it.
(Pon n Zi speaks my thoughts)
So, with my hello, I bid you goodbye.
Until next time...
To say goodbye is to prepare for the next hi!