Honestly cannot believe it's already the first of February! Time has been on the run, n sooner than I can be prepared for, I'll be on my way to Myanmar with the Friendboy by Saturday, EB Meeting at the beginning of March in KL, AGM/Thomas&Uber Cup Finals at the end of May in Wuhan (yah, I didn't know where it was too, so google told me it was in the middle of no where in China. Just perfect. Oh wells, it'll be a week of Council Meeting, so I suspect I won't have time to explore the area- though I'm not as disappointment as I thought I'd be because it's Wuhan, haha), then finally the big one: London 2012! Yes, I'm very excited for what's to come, but I'll have to make it through 6 months more of preparations n meetings before that. So, patience!
Of course, this Myanmar trip has me near the brinks of having an anxiety breakdown. Not that there's anything I should be worried about, but it's just so unpredictably taking it's course. I have no doubt it'll be a place with magnificent views n an interesting culture to experience, yet along side of all that exploration, it'll be a learning period for the both of us in terms of what "we" could be. Mind u, I completely think this is already a big step to take- n usually a step that's suppose to function as the final suitability test prior to marriage- but in consideration of all the things that had happened n the distance factor, "this" kinda shuffled into play. Unlike the traditional stages, once again, I'm gonna be uniquely different n see how it goes!
Actually, now that I think about it, it's really a time-saver: instead of wasting months to "get to know the person he wants me to know", I'll get to "know the person he is"- assuming travels will bring out the true personality of an individual. That's also what I'm afraid of. It'd be easy if this test proves that we are the wrong key for the wrong lock (keep it clean, people! I was talking about personality fit). The decision can be made right then n there that being friends would be best, n save a friendship from being gambled away in the game of love. But, what if he's shiny as a polished china set with nothing to be picky about? Then, I'm gonna be on a totally different journey than what I had originally set out for myself.
Well, yes n no. I'm sure I'll still be gunning for my goals n doing what I love- spending time with family, hanging out with friend, n traveling- except, the consideration equation will have a new element. That's the perfect example of what I truly believe how love should be: an addition to life. Not a focus or even life itself, which for some is entirely n sadly a fact, n they forget how to live without it. Being with another person is to have ur own cheerleader, ur own counsellor, ur own bunker, or whatever else he can provide u on top of what u already have in life. I mean, u did live (however many years before u met him) by urself n u did just fine. Why would that change, n even more, why should that change? Of course, by no means am I trying to say u don't need love. It's a happy factor, but not a determining one.
So yes, can't wait to see how this trip plays out n surely it'll be an interesting one regardless of what happens. Let see how persuasive he is in getting me to bet on him...
