01 November 2011

Sitting on the Fence

Dear pipsqueaks,

Have u ever felt like ur going behind ur heart to cheer for someone? It's such an odd way of looking at the situation, but I feel the heart's rather a good timer- it unconsciously sets a countdown on how something or someone makes u feel. I know, I know, ur gonna ask, where'd this countdown come from? When does it begin? It's just a natural response n it begins the moment u come into contact. Remember when u used to love this toy of urs n u swear to god that if u ever lost it, u'd lose the meaning of life, etc? But as time goes by, that feeling of importance dies down. All of a sudden, as much as it was important, u don't feel much for it. Well, that's because its countdown ended, n unfortunately, some things cannot act for itself to keep its place.

Now, with a person, it's actually quite the same. Just as an example- no seriously, an example only- there's a guy that suddenly rose to the playing field. He's amazing n all those other fantabulous things, u know, the full package. U guys can talk for hours about anything n everything; spend days together n do everything n nothing; n just be so unexpectedly compatible. Except, as everything's just going perfectly, it's also going no where far- staying at the stage of simple admiration. Not that there's anything wrong with that, but let me remind u, this isn't highschool no more. Things are never as simple now that we've filled our lives with equally, if not more, important priorities. I don't know about others, but at least for me, I'd rather not waste time on things or people that won't be staying around. It's just too much trouble to go through all that (ex. suspicion, denial, hurt, growth, etc.) n end up right back at square one. Yah sure, some say they can just play around, but deep inside, it'll still hurt, even a little. Anyways, as I was saying, he's mr.incredible, but also mr.treadmill (running on the spot going no where).

Okay, so u may be able to just go with the flow for a while. Then, things start to change. See, u had hoped he'd make a move already, but as the countdown ticked quietly, he stayed static. As time pass, ur heart finally decides, it isn't gonna happen n pulls the switch from "potential" to "friend's only". U had officially lost that urge n he has officially lost u. Now, u see, having been in this situation for quite a couple of times, I'm so tempted to go behind my heart n hint the guy, hoping he'd make it before the clock strikes twelve. It's a little confusing, but the heart might be a little more rational when it's on "self-defense". In a sense, it's removing u from the potential pain that "nothing" may bring. So, it made the call for u. At least u wouldn't be one foot in too deep in the quick sand only to find ur too far from the hanging rope to save urself!

Hm, I guess what I'm trying to say here is that guys should really pay more attention n play the hand when the time is right. Yah, I'm all for feminism n how women should be on equal grounds, but there are some traditions that are worth keeping. Just like how the knight in shining armour will come save the day (not that we can't save ourselves, but it's nice to be taken care of some times), the first move falls more easily with guys- or at least the decisive moves when it counts. Either u do or u don't, n if u do, don't take forever because she won't be waiting till then. Clock's a'ticking...



Slow n steady usually wins u the race, except when ur running against time.