Dear pipsqueaks,
Its been one of those days where, in a blur, the day ran its course n now its time for bed. Don't take this the wrong way, I was plenty productive in terms of work, but somehow, it felt like I was on automatic, functioning without actually being "here". it's probably easier to describe such a behaviour with driving. U may not be willing to admit- cos it makes u sound like an irresponsible driver if u do- but sometimes when u hop behind the wheel n start the journey, as soon as ur foot steps on the gas pedal, ur mind goes adrift n the next thing u know, u've arrived at ur destination. Don't be so quick to say that's never happened to u. I guarantee that's happened to u at least ONCE in ur life. It's okay tho, driving is kinda automatic. U just "know" how to drive (of course I'm talking about people who've driven for some time) n its practically impossible to forget how to drive. It's just that natural.
Now, the point here is that u do reach ur destination, eventually. Life kinda just works out that way (unknown destination set, gps takes the lead, n u just go with the flow). Yah, u hv periods where u feel completely lost (which usually n quite rightfully happens after all graduations- yes, the more graduations u go thru, the more chances u get to experience this "omg what am I gonna do with my life now?" feeling- that's why I just stopped after university cos it feels like I'm running from finding out the anwer if I keep studying, the answer being "what I should really be doing with my life") but hv u noticed, somehow, u make it through n, ironically now, u completely forget that period ever existed cos it was more of a "behind the scene"in the movie production that is ur life? Weird eh?
Of course, I'd wish to just flash forward n be where I should be (even though I hvnt really figured out exactly where I'd like to stop n hit "play" in the future of things), either at the high of my success or when I'm happily married...somewhere there. But I've come to realize that if it's bound to happen, why not enjoy the process while ur on ur way? It wouldn't change what's destined to happen, so it would be quite interesting to see how things play out the way it will. So what if at times I get impatient? I just gotta remember that its only a matter of time before that becomes NOW. Think about it this way: u wouldn't just skip to the last chapter of a book would u? For one, u may know the ending, but for all that's worth, u might as well save ur time, chuck the book n stick with "happily ever after". Learn to enjoy the process- it will help make the wait time less painful.
Everyone has their places in this world n their own ways to reach there; stick with ur own n u'll do just fine. (9.27.11)