Okay, so I finally caved n chose the photo frame. Last week when I bought new beddings, I got a RM10 voucher that was valid only for a week, n after walking around enough times these few days contemplating in my head whether or not I should just pick something else instead, I found myself right where I started: in the photo frame section with the exact same choice I made the first time around. Maybe I should explain why I was so relunctant to go with the photo frames...
Those who know me well enough would know I love taking photos n actually printing them out so I can stick them around my room, frame or not. That brings me to mention the decrease in realizing the values of printed photos. Yah, we got all the cool gadgets to carry around the photos soft copy, n honestly, it saves a lot to just not print them. I do get all that. But, isn't it nice to just have them up on walls n around the house? All those memories of happy, silly, sad, u-name-it moments...it's what makes a house feel like home. That's exactly why I wanted to get a photo frame n also exactly why I didn't (until today, that is). See, it was okay to have my room filled with pictures when I was back at home cos I wasn't half way across the world away from the people in them. I wouldn't hv to miss them long to see them again, especially my family. Now, it's a totally different story. I could miss them, but it'll have to wait till god-knows-when I can schedule to see them all again. It's just too much for me to have to put in my heart for that long. Why set urself up for something that's avoidable? So, I chose not to have any pictures to save me all the troubles. It was just easier that way.
Then, comes the other self that reasons otherwise. I should hv pictures. Its cos I'm so far away that I need them to remind me of my loved ones so I won't feel lost in this crazy turnout that we call life. Have u ever tried taking a really big step back to look at ur life n where u are now? How did everything become how it is? Sometimes, I shock myself. Many people that I meet comment on my "courage" n "bravery" to leave home n venture the world on my own. But, I'm not really alone. In a way, its because I have a really strong backup system (aka friendship network, family ties, etc.) that constantly provides positive support n encouragement for me to just "go" n do what I believe I should be doing...to leap without fear. I know I can always count on "home", n that's probably why it doesn't bother me as much to be as far away as I am. Not everyone is as lucky as me- yes, I do consider myself very fortunate- to have people that care about me, n I thank a higher power for giving me a good home base. Without it, I wouldn't be here today. I wouldn't be the "me" today. Having pictures will remind me of all these things n recharge my "power bar"- so to speak in street fighter terms- to keep going. So, when I have time, I'll hv to start choosing which photos to print n frame! I hope I don't miss out anyone!
You gotta figure out what it is that you need to keep you going, so you can always be at your best for anything that comes your way.