it's official: I've gone mental. Yesterday night, only 4 days since my last lockout, was yet another act of complete absent-mindedness. Truth be told, there was an acknowledgment that I wasn't at my best...maybe it was from staring at the computer screen all day or just feeling flustered for no apparent reason. I even cancelled gym cos there was a high chance of me falling off the treadmill cos I was so out of it. (An embarassing moment that must not be repeated to another living soul: I actually walked into an elevator door. Tho I have to say, it was completely normal to assume the elevator arrived cos I heard the ding, but due to bad sound barriors, what I heard was actually for the floor above =.=) on the bright side, I didn't bruise my forehead...?
But just when u think u've walked out of trouble, somehow, it finds u. One way or another. This kinda feels like one of those final destination movies, but not the dying part of course. So, as I was replying messages on my phone at home, my friend said he had arrived. Cos of security reasons- elevators need to be accessed per floor- so I had to go down n fetch him. It really didn't occur to me until I reached into my pockets n "eh? Where's my key? Ohhhhhh my mother of pearls. This can't be happening...again! It just can't be!" Yes, I was flipping out in the lobby. I wasn't mad at anyone else- wasn't the elevator's fault; wasn't the system's fault; wasn't my friend's fault; wasn't my phone's fault- it was mine. After the first time this happened, the rest was all me to blame. Lock me once, shame on u; lock me twice, shame on me. I mean, key cards can be great, when I'm on vacay n can simply go to the front desk for another one. But for apartment-use? It's really conveniently inconvenient.
Never mind that. Now is not the time to cry about the situation. As it was getting late, my newly adjusted planb needed to be actioned as soon as possible before all my coworkers fall asleep. So I started the chain calls (but there weren't many I could reach to begin with as one was away in hk, two in china, one I'm not too sure where), n not surprising among the rest still in the country, one was out of town, one was not picking up, n the other was playing badminton. But luckily, the uncle playing badminton agreed to come get the office door for me. Hm, I felt bad. According to my other coworker, he lives ~30min motorbike ride away. That's like driving from burnaby to ubc: far. But there was nothing else I could do unless I plan to call my boss to come save me...that would be my absolute last option. Anyways, uncle said he'll take around an hour or so, which of course I don't mind cos I'm just glad he's even making the trip over. So my friend took me out to a malaysian restaurant not far from my place to hv some tom yum n naan...actually, I'm quite glad he was there to accompany me (but then again, I wouldn't hv left the house in the first place lol).
No matter, it all worked out in the end. It just goes to show that I needed to do one more thing...n I wasn't gonna wait till morning to do this. At 1am, I finished drawing up this should-hv-been-up-already warning sign:
Everyone's got their bad days. I just didn't expect mine to be so close to one another. Nonetheless, its a sign that I do need to make up another safeguard cos I won't always be so lucky to hv someone come save my day. Its alright, now I'm thinking of other signs I can put up around the apartment...quotes of inspiration, funny jokes, n other "do u remember" posts. This time, I forgot my key. Sometimes, it may be something more abstract...like goals n memories. It doesn't hurt to remind urself once in a while what's important cos we all forget sometimes. It doesn't have to be words; can be photos, postcards, posters etc. whatever floats ur boat. Time to get creative!
If u believe that everything happens for a reason, then u'll be able to find a lesson in every life experience.